had a long talk with mr ryan and some juniors today. pleasantries were exchanged when he suddenly asked what's my ambition. i said i'm still uncertain of what i wanna become and he told me i have great potential in becoming a dj given my advantage of being eloquent in bilingualism and having a 'good' voice. he made me realise that i have the interest towards the media industry which im really thankful he did because as a 17 year old i should by now have in mind what i want to achieve and set a goal now for me to work towards it which previously i was uncertain. Mr Ryan, having being in the media industry for quite some time told me that i could have a future there but the only existing problem now is that the COP for Mass communication is hell low. i like how he said that he said that everyone believes in having a piece of good qualification certificate is tantamount to having being hired then a person with pure talent.

the march holidays have commenced and i've dedicated the first 3 days to drama. tedious but well worth the time. i hope all goes well. can't wait for friday's arrival! im finally patronizing the USS! very very excited :D

aunt's birthday today. mom bought the cake but she told my aunt it was me and my sis who bought it. my mom puts in the effort in improving the relationship between me and my aunt. i appreciate that.

finally got my glasses fixed. no more blurry visions YAY.

so yeah, i got my results back. kinda depressing cause the results were kinda undesirable. i blame myself though but at the same time common test was on febuary not long after the new year's celebration. but still, i shouldn't be use cny as an excuse. buck up, juliaaaaa! who knew there was such a big leap from N levels to O's. from an A2 for languages to a C6. boy, was i dumbfounded. oh well, i have only myself to blame. i just hope for april to commence so i can officially stop attending for Drama and abdicate from my position. i really cannot afford to fail, i've already wasted 5 years of youth in this shitty school. but on a happier note, my skin condition's getting better. im getting lesser outbreak of pimples and rashes.

reasons as to why im keeping my hair short is because i'll look very typical. like any other typical girly girls with long hair. plus i like the whole androgynous thing so yeah, hope my answer satisfies everyone who's beeen asking me why.