Been living the repetitive cycle of waking up and going to sleep angry ever since I moved in 5 years ago. Maybe I should start attending yoga lessons that teaches you on how to have some inner peace cause clearly im lacking in that department. fuck, times like this i feel like i have no one to confide to but then again i won't divulge anything. fuck me. everyone knows me as "the angry uncommunicative teenager" well fuck you fuck everything fuck life

"I know that you know that, I know that you know."

"I don't wanna take your precious time 'Cause you're such a pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty face. But you turned into a pretty big waste of my time."

I've always found the female species to be very intricate. A living oxymoron comprised of a tsunami of emotions. Entails great laboriousness to comprehend.  
There is one thing that I can conclude from my 19 years of observation about the female species: most of us are two faced bitches. Underneath that smiley facade is a prison of vicious spiteful thoughts kept clandestine to only the person you dont like but so exposed to everyone. Fucking emmy award winning bitches. 

Where do you think all this anger will bring you. What conclusion would you come to?  Take some time out and look around, observe. Your lack of visual perception is causing you to channel a lot of unnecessary hate towards me. I've done nothing, well at least not anything to feel guilty towards you or anything against my conscience. Let us all be mature grown ups shall we.

Leaving for the Philippines in a few hours time and i'm still not done with packing.... Not to mention that I've yet to print out my air ticket and covert my sgd to pesos. I am such a lazy fat fuck. Sometimes I feel like my younger sis is more responsible than I am... sigh hahaha
 

Sometimes I feel like i'm the only one trying, feeling exhausted is an understatement.

Have you ever been hurt by someone whom you loved so wholeheartedly that the inarticulate pain has etched scars almost impossible to eradicate? The excruciating pain affecting you adversely in every single way... And to make things worse, he leaves you. It may sounds as if i'm exaggerating, or maybe I am. I don't know... but aish whatever. Back on track; What if that person comes back and seeks for forgiveness? Are you able to be that magnanimous, to be able to put aside the pain he's caused you to felt, to say "Yes, I forgive you." Are you able to do that... I've been wondering about this... I really don't know how to feel about this. Fuck

很痛。真的很痛。。。