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Tuesday, December 24, 2013
Even in my sleep, I felt so awake. I'm wearing a suitcase, under each one of my eyes already.
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11:04 AM
Sunday, December 22, 2013
Every time I exhale those vulgar curls of white smoke, I secretly hope for my respiratory system to fail.
Every time I intoxicate myself, I hope to remain muddled and inebriated for as long as I can.
I came home quite tipsy but still sober, partially. I lay on my bed. My room was unnaturally silent. I took deep breathes of the cold December air, and there I felt it. An ache blossomed from my heart like how blood would spread all over a white t-shirt. I heard whispers from the ghost of my past and my inferiority complex reminding me of the things that I don't wish to be reminded of. Those despondent thoughts, they've clung on to me like a swirl of ghosts. I was paralyzed by the overwhelming plethora of emotions felt at once. My body did not hold the capacity to contain all these emotions. The last thing I remembered was waking up to a soaked pillow, I cried myself to sleep...
I'm still waiting for the day to come, where I can fully love and appreciate myself.
Every time I intoxicate myself, I hope to remain muddled and inebriated for as long as I can.
I came home quite tipsy but still sober, partially. I lay on my bed. My room was unnaturally silent. I took deep breathes of the cold December air, and there I felt it. An ache blossomed from my heart like how blood would spread all over a white t-shirt. I heard whispers from the ghost of my past and my inferiority complex reminding me of the things that I don't wish to be reminded of. Those despondent thoughts, they've clung on to me like a swirl of ghosts. I was paralyzed by the overwhelming plethora of emotions felt at once. My body did not hold the capacity to contain all these emotions. The last thing I remembered was waking up to a soaked pillow, I cried myself to sleep...
I'm still waiting for the day to come, where I can fully love and appreciate myself.
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2:38 AM
Friday, December 20, 2013
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3:50 PM
Monday, December 9, 2013
These fears, they hold a tight grasp on to me like an anchor. Drowning me into the deepest depth of the ocean. My voice isn't breaking through, my cries for help is not audible to anyone. Who hears me anyways?
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9:01 PM
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