really loving the holidays. cant wait to work, can't wait for my Bali trip. i think i just found another sanctuary of my very own^^ i need to start walking more like how i used to. oh and the first two pictures about the birds, the scene was beautiful. with birds flying above me freely, chirping ever so happily. i think i stood in the middle of the road for about five minutes with my head up straining my eyes at these little birdies before some taxi driver honked at me for obstructing the path^^

oh well, i guess its not a bad thing that im going for a holiday alone(:

FUCK ,why did god put so many fucking annoying people on this planet and gave me only two fists?

Some people are just...shameless. What is it with these people thinking that "oh, I'm too cool to be friends with XXX, XXX has nothing for me to take advantage off, she's such a turn off." Well, excuse me. I don't know if anyone has told you this but clearly, you are undesirable, a major turn off, an eyesore and the list goes on and who are you to judge this other person who just purely wants to be friends with you. Be glad that someone(who probably suffers from really bad eyesight) would even take the initiative to humbly ask you to accept this friendship. I don't get what is with people who's superiority complex and ego are just so high. Learn to be humble, aite. And of all people, why did you had to come up to me and ask me for advice... And why did I even bother to be so nice.

okay so my hair's been an major issue of mine for quite a while now. i fucking hate the way it's growing out to be like. its growing out to be a fucking bob , and the only reason why its happening so was because i had previously chopped off my locks by yours truly, me. im not the person to cry over spilled milk but urgh my hair..... i want my scene hair back. only god knows how much i miss having my 'scene' looking hair urgh, this is depressing. my inferiority complex's dominating me. urghwtf. i dont wanna look like any odinary person with the generic bob haircuts girls are having. ):

HO HO HO. i've been neglecting this space for quite a while now. as usual. few papers down already. honestly for math paper 1 today, im emotionless about it. i get a lot of questions asking "hey can you do the paper, was it hard?" honestly i don't know. is that a good thing? :/ hopefully i can do well. thats the only thing im concerned about. days of freedom are drawing near, i can smell it already. this anticipation is killing me. hopefully i can get possession of a DSLR by next year, i really need it. notice i said 'need', not a 'want'. its not a materialistic lust. its an utmost necessity in my life right now.

Graduation ceremony, pretty much had taken photos with the people whom i always wanted to take pictures with, well not all but at least some will do. i didnt felt one bit of sadness when everything ended. i hated how the hall was so humid and stuffy and i kept sweating throughout the whole ceremony-.- there were multiple holes in my fringe, oh well. i had fun (: hung out with mira and mark after school, they're pretty cool people^^

we're not even one bit identical. that's not a bad thing though(;

Dear friend, at some point in our lives, we will have to face a dilemma and you can only make a choice. a choice that determines how your life's gonna be. you know that you've changed and that you're not yourself. you want to be your old jovial self again but you cant bear to give her up because you're so in love, so smitten with her. its as if she's like the air you breathe, without her you'll die. In life, you have to make sacrifices, i know its gonna be hard on you but hey, "sometimes a sacrifice might be a blessing in disguise" quoted from abigail. plus, you're at an age where you're in the puppylove stage. you dont know what love is. its conspicuous that she doesnt love you the way you love her so much. i just dont get what you see in her, she's only using you. but who am i to interfere or meddle with your heart's affair, who am i to even have the rights to say that she doesnt love you when i all i know is she looks really bitchy from the exterior. come back to your senses my friend, dont ruin your life, stop sulking and being depressed about how she broke your heart. she's not worth it.

oh, i watched this film about this Preparatory school, and the students were like speaking in profound, fluent english. where we say "oh shit", and they go "holy excrement" LOL how envious. i always wanted to be able to speak like that but i dont think i can ever amount to their standards. English is similiar to photography, there's always someone better than you. you just have to keep improving yourself.

i feel like sitting for the SATs..i dont know, i'll see how it goes after my N's.
but again, maths is one of the main criteria. pfft. i feel like aiming for laselle, i dont know, it sounds like an ideal school for me though. i kinda like it. but oh well, i dont know. for now i just have to focus on my subjects.

Yesterday was pretty fun hanging out with friends dining at Seoul Garden celebrating linh's 17th. We ate to our heart's content. Surprisingly the cake we baked tasted pretty alright. Will upload pictures soon (:

happy 17th Tran Gia Linh! stop disgracing vietnam and dont let audrey cut your hair anymore and grow it long! refrain yourself from consuming fattening food and stop being such a glutton. love you linh~~~~~

you withdraw yourself away from people who actually cares for you. because you're unappreciative, you take things for granted. i dislike how you changed.
soon you'll end up alone.

woah, after what seemed like eternity im back to blogging.
today was rather an eventful day. baked a cake for linh's birthday tomorrow with jane and at audrey's house. hopefully she'll like it *crosses fingers*
a heart to heart talk was what followed next. i really love conversations where pleasantries are exchanged and we just emit whatever we feel that has been kept as an unpleasant thought of others of our own. and come to think of it, an epiphany struck me that you're such an unappreciative person, a miser, self-centered and almost misanthropic but only to a certain extent until today. my impression of you changed, but i still like you as a friend.

on a happy note, the contacts i ordered are mine in a few days time! ^^

Its funny how 15minutes before my N level papers commenced, my heart was thumping so hard and I could feel the adrenaline rushing through my veins. But as soon as I stepped into the examination hall, all the worries just vanished. I didn't even felt a single cell of my body being nervous. It didn't felt like a national exam to me, more like a class test but in a smelly yet freezing school hall. 3 papers down already. I can only hope for the best.

had an awesome chat with jane today at serangoon garden's mac. we talked about anything and everything. we were so engrossed that we lost track of time. time passed so quickly in just a blink of an eye. jane walked home cause the bus she took that was supposedly to send her home but the route change for i dont know what reason. she was afraid, cause its the whole last day of ghost month and she was walking alone at night so she called me. i kept her company through the phone^^

I wanna be a kid again, where I'm oblivious to everything and just have my own fucking fun. Where I can be obstinate and no one will fucking blame you cause you're too young to understand anything. I wanna be a kid again where I used to love coming to school and have a hell of fun with my friends. Where I was never stressed about exams or homework. I hate how life is so depressing for me now.

some channel 8 celebrity whom my friends are not even fans of but insists on taking a picture with him. poor guy couldn't eat in peace. just look at the pathetic height difference, local girls are seriously too short. just saying. i should get into the acting industry, honestly i have what it takes to become an actress. hahahawtf. but how typical would that be, living in a fame obsessed country with people taking desperate measures just to be famous, to be noticed and rich. they probably lack of family love.

because by choice i decided to leave it obscure.