hope you learnt your lesson.

Gee.
mom doesn't like me being at home. yeah, i understand how she feels.
she left me a few hours at home, i already created a mess.
i spilled coffee on the floor, i forgot to wash the dishes, i left cereal on the table, etc.
i can;t watch tv cause there's a problem with it. damn, it's still new.
gee, i have no social life. hahs. better find a job in the holidays.
i think it won't take long before mom find's out to my hair.
yeah, i bleached it. well, not blonde or anything. just brown.
it's not preety obvious.

i absoutely hate my cousins alot.
they're just so fucking obnoxious.



sorry, audrey.
i was bored. hahs.

GOSH.
i think i'm addicted.








RESPONSE TO HATERS:

KEVJUMBA


NIGAHIGA

didn;t go to school today.
i ended up watching youtube videos. don't you just love youtube comedians?
they're just so funny. they make you laugh.
my recommandations are : Nigahiga, Kevjumba, Happyslip.
these people are HILARIOUS. i couldn't stop laughing at their videos.
i wonder where they get their inspirations from?

oh! there's this Nigahiga video. it's called The Ninja Glare.
i think it's cool. i'm currently learning how to do it.
just in case you're wondering, it's a bunch of hand movements but i think it's real cool.
WATCH IT. LEARN IT.
There's a 'slow mo' at the 3.32.

this is how i'm exactly feeling.
napfa was okay. failed my pull ups, as usual. the rest was preety okay.
class was boring. slept halfway through.
then went to join in with a supernatural conversation with zenia,ian,leon,linh,etc.
went home straight after school. grandma's hospitalised. cancer.
it's really heart-breaking seeing an old lady being so pessismisstic about her life.
she kept saying that she would die and that no medication can cure what she's suffering now. she said her time was up.
my mom just simply broke down into tears. it's been really hard on her.

after visiting her,
it was my turn to fall sick.
i'm having tension headache right now. it's killing me.
there's this intense pain over the top of my head and temples. and my neck and leg muscles are sore. stupid napfa. plus,
i'm running a temperature of 37.9degree. how cool is that?
i'm in a dilemma if i should go to school tomorrow. i'm in deep shit.

you caught me looking at your direction many times today. can't be helped.
your voice, so calm and soothing. how i wish it was my name you were calling.
the urge to get near you gets stronger each time i see you.
but unfortunately, you distance yourself away from me.
you swiftly darted away your sight away from me because you knew i was looking at you.
am i that abominable in your eyes?

today's assembly was bloody long.
i was sweating like hell.
had the fund-raising(FR) today. it was preety cool. went around shamelessly promoting our products. forced my juniors to buy it. hehe.
before the the FR officialy commenced, i thought we were going to make a loss.
just in case you were wondering. we're selling malt candy. it's something like honey but a harder version?
anyway, it tastes good. :}
i never thought it would be a hit. jane and cass proved me wrong.
we took the upper & lower sec recess to promote and sell our products.
the upper sec were more willing to buy it.
blah.blah.blah.
we bought 10tubs of malt candy. managed to sell 7 tubs. not bad~
we forgotten that we had an abundance of unsold snacks and so we went around selling it at a loss.

ironically, we made a profit.
we made a total of $190.20!
i'm so proud~
gtg!

wee~ guess what? a repetition. of? a repetition where i emit something out of my mouth which didn't quite went through my hollow head and a victim was hurt. literally.
in other words, i 'hurt someone's feelings. again.
I don’t know if we could say a good thing about every person we’ve met so far, maybe they haven’t impressed us in a positive way, but we can most certainly bitch about all of them. There must have been something to annoy us at one point. It’s only human! For every nice gesture and person who smiled thanks to you, there is an unhappy person, someone who feels neglected or discriminated against.
It’s human to be annoyed, but above that, I think it’s human to be hatable (being available for hate).
yeah, enough of all the crap.


i abhor it when the atmosphere gets tense. you can't talk. you can't say anything. you can't be yourself. you have to plan to take the next step with precise care. it sucks. this isn't the first time.

so i haven quite apologised for what i've done. i apologise. but to a certain extent.
i apologise for making someone feel so miserable and downcasted and hurt until he/she has to resort to googling for 'life ain't fair' articles to tell the whole world how dreadful, miserable and depressed he/she is. yeah. things don't always go the way you want it be. there are always things that pop out out of the blue obstructing your "dream" path. this isn't fairytale.

another thing. you decided to play the game. it's not going to be played like how ammatures play it. and the reason why i asked her to say it is because you two are the closest. you gotta spice things up a litttle sometimes. the truth is harsh. it always is. nobody likes to hear the truth. sometimes, you have to accept it. you accept it. you learn it. you learn it. you improve yourself. who knew things would turn up this way? sensitivity, i must say. i'm not referring to 'i'm allergic to maths' and such. it's the emotional sensitivity inside oneself. everyone gets sensitive when it comes to a certain topic. i'm sensitive to some certain things. whereas, others are fine. i'm open. i can accept critism. if it's constructive, i heed it. if it's one of those hateful critism. heck care. i get critism too. everyone does. i wouldn't even bother what others are saying inwardly of me or if someone is harbouring something malicious on me. why the hell do you even care? i mean, nobody's perfect. you have your flaws.
why make yourself so miserable by taking everything so seriously?
i can get along well in life when you're somewhere in the corner still dwelling on the comment someone has made of you when you can just get over it in 5minutes.

god, i'm hurting feelings again.

i'm sorry. i'm sorry.
i don't apologise much,so..... yeah.

alot of things have been going on nowadays.
i've got some stupid fund raising project on monday.
i've got a meeting with cbss students tomorrow.
and collection of class tee money.
and what's worst is that i'm in charge.
it sucks being the leader but i kinda like it.
i like the stress and challenges that awaits me. it makes me feel good.
sometimes i wished i was a prefect. i told vinod about it and he totally demoralized me.

my MYE results are screwed.
i didn't do as well as i expected.
i scored a border line for almost every subject.
sometimes i wondered if a knock on my head can make me smart, maybe i'll try it.
but that's just drama.

attention to all 3n1 students:
please submit the class tee money latest by next week.
the amount is $20.
those who are unable to submit the money will be unable to get their class shirt.
thank you.

i'm fatigued.
lethargicness is killlllling me.
i'm sick and tired of everything.
i just wanna close my eyes and rest.
i don't want to keep it as a slient obsession anymore.
it's a torturous thing to endure.
je vous bien aime.

kris allen won. screw you,america.

i hate people putting words in my mouth.
if you don't have the balls to say it then don't say it was me who said it.
you're only getting me into trouble.
oh wait? your ulterior motive is to get me into trouble.
how ingenius. not to mention mature.
start acting your age,dork.
don't be such a loser.
words can't bring me down.
get a life, dude.

i wanna wear my old unitofrm.
it's been ages since i last wore it.

finally patched things up with my mother and some people.
got back my results today.
didn't really do as well as i expected but overall it's still okay, i suppose.
finally passsed my maths even though it's just mediocure.
for once in my life! hahahaha.
auyong's absent today. didn't get back my paper. damnit.
chatted with juliana and joycelin. don't you just love gossiping/=? lols.
holiday's commencing soon! hooray! but i'm broke. :{
oh. went to ica to make my ic.
i'll be collecting it next week.
cabbed home. man, it stinks.
my head hurts.


i have to say it.
i can't hide it forever.
i can't keep telling lies just to cover up for myself.
this can't continue.
this has to stop.
i'm going to say it.
god bless me with the courage.

i want ice-cream.

oh yeah. exams are over!
i'm feeling so so so so so good.
i hate mugging for exams and burning midnight oil.
oh well, at least it's over now. yipee!
went to far east yesterday with linh,jane,audrey,ruier,joyvelin.
went there to cut my hair. i kinda like it.
having long hair is too troublesome for me.
went to eat subway. blah.balh.blah.
went to walk around orchard. blah.blah.blah.
and most importantly, ang mo-watching. hahas. my fave.
headed home.


today we're having a steamboat paaaaarty!
going to joycelin's house to celebrate the end of MYE!
going to take an abundance of photos!
gotta go soon! ciao~

yesterday after the exam, we were suppose to revise for maths but in the end we started talking and got really engrossed in jane's chinese ghost stories.
then went to jane's house as linh wanted to adopt hamsters.
went there. blah.blah.blah.
creamer(jane's dog) started licking me. eww.
sugar(also jane's dog) kept sniffing me. well, i suppose they like me.
then ate there,watched some shows then stared web-camwhoring.
the inspiration started with brina. and we took an abundance of photos.
i don't have the full amount of photos with me but you can view jane's or audrey's blog.
here goes.
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retarted laughing.

dang it. i have the smallest eyes.

we're asians. so i don't find it offensive.

swine... jane has the most natural swine look.

er,.. retarded?

bengs can do it. so can we.


cheese!

ah...i'm loss for words.

I

♥

YOU.

i am not writing this in a harsh tone. i repeat.
i am not writing this in a harsh tone.


we human have our own personal likings & tastes.
like, singers,actors,idols,food,clothings, etc.
and since like i said it's a personal liking. others might not share the same taste of liking the same things as you do.
others might even beabominators of it.
let's just take singers for example.

You can hate a person just by looking at her/him: the hair, the smile, the look, the clothes. Anything that triggers negative feelings.

maybe they haven’t impressed us in a positive way, but we can most certainly bitch about them. There must have been something to annoy us at one point. It’s only human!
merci beaucorp, alex evans.

so, we have certainly at some point made critics about them. like i said. it's only humans! plus, girls like to censure but jokingly about singers who might have the aptitude but have not made the impression for us to like them due to some reason.

okay, so maybe we have gone to the extent of making videos about them that's not really portraying a positive image about them. (scroll down to see it)

i know some fans are protective of their idols and they don't like people critising about them. but hey, honestly it's just a JOKE! Which part of the video can you not sense from it?
plus, i think you were laughing at the video and even replayed it several times.

we're not antagonizing against you.
we're only expressing our views about them.
which i seriously believe that there's no need to be infuriated.
it's not as if we're mocking about your taste of liking them or anything.(okay, maybe we did.)

argh! wtf. i'll just get straight to the point.

i'm just trying to say that even though we might not like what you like, but you are eventually our friend.
we just don't like them. that's all.
accept the fact. there are alot of people out there disliking them too. surely you can't be angry with all of them?
i mean, come on, you can't possibly be angry with us everyday because of this issue.
and i don't think we're 'over the limit'. it's just a joke.


and most importantly,
i know how people like to help/defend their friends.
but if it doesn't concern you. SHUT THE FCUK UP.
no offence.
and the only reason why we didn't 'talk' to you is because we're not close.
we didn't knew each other well until the end of sec2.
and the reason why we post such things on blogs is because we know the other party doesn't mind/ they can take it.

that's all, y'all.

Saw these adorable cameras on the internet.
and the prices are reasonable!
here are some which i thought are cool.











you can go check out the website.
www.8storeytree.com &
www.lomographyasia.com

suddenly, i'm missing my long hair badly.
i want my hair to grow back.
but then again, .....................
okay. i'm loss for words.
i forgotten how i looked like back in sec1.
i found a few photos of it, including sec2 and 3.
so, here's how i look like.
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SECONDARY ONE:




SECONDARY TWO:







SECONDARY THREE:







i cut my hair again

and it grew back.



NOW FOR SOME STYLE~





OKAY. THIS IS PATHETIC