Sometimes I don't want to exist. I just want to go somewhere between life and death, dreaming and awake. I just don't know how I let myself get caught up with irrelevant things or people over the past few weeks. I'm just not in the right frame of mind. I've closed Tweetdeck and Msn in hopes of blocking everyone out for now. I feel like disappearing for a bit, to collect my thoughts although I know that I will probably only feel better with my friends around being all kay siao-ing. I thought things would get better. Instead we're left with this mess in both our hearts and minds. I guess partially it was my fault for letting this happen.  I guess all anyone needs is time. Or maybe I'm just thinking too much too.