Why is it that the things I strive to work so hard for, the  time and efforts I've exerted yet the results are futile. Am I working not hard enough? ): 

I've always been academically challenged, but I try. I really do! 

Why can't I ace my papers exactly like how i aced practicing my past year papers.

Resentment is all I have for myself... Especially since everyone in class is wayyyyy smarter than me. Feels like I'm drowning in my own abyss of inferiority complex. 

I'm dreading the commencement of school... Where everyone will bombard you with the same dreadful question "How's your GPA?" no, I don't wish to answer... Answering that question will only further self deprecate my little existing esteem. 

The thought of dropping out of school still knocks on me, but what will I be doing then? I don't see a future for myself. It's bleak. 

brb, heading to the showers to cry my heart out.