Life is depressingly mutable. Everything changes. Leaves fall, birds poop, dogs bark, cats meow, people come and go. Even as i am typing this, the present is turning into the past almost simultaneously. $

KAT VON D I'VE ALWAYS BEEN A FAN OF YOURS YOU ARE SO HOT AND I REALLY WANT TO GET EVERYTHING ON YOUR MAKEUP LINE. SINGAPORE SEPHORA, Y U NO KVD'S MAKE UP PRODUCTS!?!?!?!?!  );

Some people cannot be taken with you. They walk beside you, and then can go no further - then they are no more than scenery, and you must leave them there, in the past behind you.

"Metal and Harcore isn't everyone's top choice in music. I think one thing that many people don't understand about punk and hardcore and metal is that it is more than the sole solely musical parts. People don't always get why the vocalists scream or how the pit can be classified as "dancing," but in the end of all of it, people show up because it feels real. Metal/hardcore is about the community: it's about people "getting" you."

Ohhhh payday, you are gonna be so well spent.

有时候我们会在生活中很难免遇到一些我们不该遇到的人。 遇见了之后，想把他们忘掉就会变成一件很困难的事。。。

Ignorance is bliss. I'll pretend to not know anything.

Never assume, expect or demand. Know your limits, where you stand, your role. Do not be affected, jealous or paranoid. Its the only way to keep my heart alive.

Overwhelmed by shock. For a moment, it felt like as though both my respiratory system was impaired. I found it so hard to believe, almost impossible. Who'd knew? I have this ability of finding things out and what I accidentally found out just killed the fuck out of me pretty badly. I felt a fragment of my heart shattering. This was something I had least expected... Sorry, make that " something I would have never thought would happen". Then again, she's an attractive full fledged lady. Pretty, funny and lovable. While I'm just a repulsive teenage loser who can't pull off both natural and cosmetic beauty, has an incurable diurnal addiction of stalking people online and edits her own photo with a few apps before uploading it to Instagram. (Loser level: Julia) good to know you're not lonely anymore. I just don't wish to know about your progress with her... I'll get over you, eventually.

damn sian of my life...

My skin hates me... so envious of how some people win the hereditary lottery when it comes to good skin, just as others are blessed with the kind of metabolism that lets them eat vast amounts of pizza, chocolate, and ice cream without gaining an ounce. I am steadily gaining weight... which is not a good sign. Gaining weight is never anything near positive to me. My folks are always "像你这个年龄的女孩子胖一点比较好看。“ which translate: "Girls your age look better with more weight on." LIES, ALL A PACK OF LIES I DARE SAY. Who the fuck wants their thighs to be capable of juggling Mississippi waves, or with fats bulging out from their waists like a patty in a hamburger or with the flapping fats on your arms capable of producing wind. HOW DOES THAT MAKE ME LOOK BETTER????????? I am back to, or have always been in to my self demoralizing state  where i hate myself for everything... This time round I will do something about it. To repudiate my acne and fats. There will not be a repetition where i was called numerous names and violently bullied by other kids because I was fatter and still am ugly... If all else fails even by the age of 20. Plastic surgery, please work your magic on me... 

You remind me so much of my father, not completely but in some ways you really do. The way you talk, how your laughter is audible even miles away, the way you socialise with people, the rate of speed you eat your food... Reminds me of daddy... I dont know how to feel about this. I'm bemused because I have a love hate relationship with my dad. Did i unknowingly started liking you because you contain the qualities that existed in my dad? But aren't those qualities women look for in a men when it comes to marriage? -.^ whatever the reason is, my dad is the main reason as to why im so afraid of men. He made me Androphobic and here I am liking this guy having a likeness in general behavior to my dad. The fuck is wrong with me...

Where do i even begin? I suppose by saying "Im sorry" is a good start  Well, I really messed up this time. I'm sure you're getting used to that by now. I've known you for 5/6 years now  . Looking back, I realised how much of an asshole friend i was to you and i cant believed that i actually said those stupid and immature things. but i suppose hindsight is always 20/20.  It was stupid and I wasn’t the friend that you expected me to be. Even if I explain my actions, it still doesn’t justify that I did say some pretty hurtful things.  It was wrong, stupid and immature of me and you did not deserve any of the grief and anger I have caused you.  You did not deserve it, and you certainly did not deserve it from someone who calls you their friend for 6 years.   But I want to make amends. I truly do. You’re too important of a person to lose and I hate myself for realizing that now rather than earlier. I love you drey, i really do. Happy 18th birthday.

now a trip down memory lane, 


Sec 3 camp

Cant remember when was this taken but you did say benjamin leo was cute hahaha

a very random trip down to the playground that was demolished a year after and when i was into scary lenses.... what was i thinking...

midnight movie with hanjie jordan and richard, ikr they're like the last people we would hang out with alone

one minute before chinese paper 2

the day when we decided to learn how to ride a bicycle at bishan park. I still remembered you paid for my expenses that day as my birthday present. You were the first to learn how to ride the bicycle but you fell off when riding over a bump hahahaha

 a very common unglam shot from one of our swimming sessions...

when we were all working at propnex... i miss those days

not forgetting to end this post with a photo of us staying over at our best friend's house :)